It feels great to feel better each day

Heeey! Everyone!

I found out there is a name for the varicose veins on

the ovaries, uterus, and pelvic floor wall.

It's technical name is Pelvic floor congestion.

This can cause major pain, and complications

with other organs...like the bladder.

Who in the world would have thought

that anyone could have varicose veins

on these parts!

Well, I am living proof!

But,

thank the Lord He has given me relief from this

overwhelming pain

through the surgery.

I am on my way to better days!

The past 2 yrs. of my life have been

physically exhausting, emotionally draining,

and mentally challenging.

Naturally, it took a toll on me as a person.

I have sorta lost myself in the process.

But, the good news is.....I am finding myself everyday

and finding new ways I can be a better me!

When we go through dark vallies in our lives,

it is very easy to just give up...

or to cave in.

I can honestly say that I almost gave up emotionally

several times.

The only thing that kept me from giving up was

the power of the Holy Spirit.

His love and mercy are never ending.

People will always let us down,

but the Father is constant.

He never gets tired of hearing us share our sorrows.

He is always with us.

Sometimes we forget that, and that is when

the enemy can destroy us.

We have power in the name of the Lord.

We forget so easily that we can call on Him

and He is never weary, wavering, or complacent.

He is our Abba father, Our Alpha and Omega.

Our Everything.

Our own humanity keeps us from seeing

His love.

We sometimes compare Him to our fellow humans.

But, no comparison! None at all my friends.

He is, and will always be there!

All we have to do is believe it and allow Him to

guide us.

That is the hardest part sometimes...

Letting Him guide us.

We think we know best, but we really don't.

He knows our fears, our concerns, our weaknesses, our

strengths.

He is able, ALWAYS!

I pray someone out there is touched by

His grace, His love, and His awesome forgiveness.

Keep trusting in Him!



Recovery! Recovery! Recovery!

A brand new women, I am! I was glad to get rid of

the junk that was making my I.C. worse.

I am only flaring mildly and that's a huge blessing.

The doctor told me of the weirdest thing I have ever heard of in the world. I had varicose veins on my ovaries. 

What??? Only the good Lord knows how this happened.

But needless to say it was causing me tremendous pain

on top of everything else.

Now, if I can just get this hormone right everything will

be well on it's way to "normal again."

I want to encourage every out there who is struggling with pain,

to keep Hope alive! Speaking from experience, Hope

can make a huge difference in your attitude and recovery.

 I have had a tremendous struggle with this myself!

I am very tired of being sick and down. I'm ready to be 

my spunky self again.

I pray that the Lord will help me be patient and keep trusting Him

for a speedy recovery.

It's been a little over a week, so I'm doing great.

The walls are closing in on me, and a change of pace is 

needed for sure. 

Oh dear Lord, help me say it is well with my soul!

God Bless everyone! 

Enjoy the beautiful day.



Finally getting some relief! Surgery in the morning!

 Hello folks.

Tomorrow is gonna be a brighter day...I will have my hysterectomy

and will be on my way to recovery...

It has been a very long road for me.

My mind, and body have been through a tremendous amount of

stress. Sometimes too much for one to take.

I have been having hot flashes and cold sweats

along with some mood swings..Probably going through peri-menopause

Anyway, I know it's been rough for my kids and family and

I'm thankful to have them hanging in there with me,

especially since I am down and just not quite myself

right now.

Keep me in your prayers for tomorrow morning.

Surgery starts at 7:30 am.

God will see me through this surgery.

I will make it! It will improve my

I.C. 70%.

My ovaries probably aren't producing enough hormones

right now, so that will immediately be taken care of too.

Sometimes we have to go through the storms

first for a while, then when we come out, we are better.

 I am praying to the Lord that He will give me the

strength I need mentally, and physically to recover

from this surgery.

Praise Be to the Lord!

For He is Worthy to be praised!

Giving Thanks

Hello Out there.

Hasn't it been absolutely gorgeous lately?

I am awed by the beauty of new life. It is very inspiring to look

outside and enjoy God's wonderful creation.

The brand new flowers coming into bloom,

the leaves on the trees becoming green.

It is a joy to see.

God is magnificent.

Psalm 118:1 Says

O Give thanks unto the Lord, for he is good: because his mercy endureth forever.

Psalm 95:1 O come, let us sing unto the Lord: let us make a joyful noise to

the rock of our salvation.

When we stop to realize who the creator is and how Awesome

He is to have created this beautiful earth, the birds, and every wonder of nature,

 His glory shines.

Lately, I have appreciated the small things that most of us, myself included,

take for granted everyday.

The joy that comes into my heart from just being able to enjoy the true beauty

of the song birds as they sing, the dew on the grass in the morning,

and the newness of spring is reason to sing praises to our Lord.

He brings a thankful and glad heart to us. We see how great he is and how neglectful

we are at not telling him everyday.

I am thankful for his creation. But I am even more thankful that He is our Creator.

 When our circumstances change, we automatically tend to freak out and

feel abandoned by God. I know I have that tendency.

But slowly, and I mean snail like at times, my God is changing me each day.

Thankfully He is a gracious, merciful God who cares about us more than

we can even imagine. He cares about our sorrows,

and our sadness. I am so thankful that He is never changing.

There are days when all I can do is open up my bible and just read the Psalms.

 It reminds me how much He deserves my thankfulness. He deserves my joy,

even in my sorrow  He is worthy to be praised.

He gives us the strength to carry on when we don't think we can even make it

another minute.

It takes the mighty strength of the Lord to go on sometimes.

But, just when you feel like your life is a blob, and you start feeling sorry for yourself,

His voice is whispering, come to me my child, don't cry, don't worry, I am here for you.

That is love. That is freedom. That is just amazing. That is who our Father is!

Give thanks today. No matter what your current circumstance is.

I know that is hard to do, believe me. It took me a while to be able to do this.

But, it changes you when you do. I really mean it. Something wonderful happens inside your heart.

Even when my pain is out of control, I am learning to praise Him. It takes the focus off of me

and puts it on Him. That's where I need to be. Focused on Him.

So, folks there was a little Sunday school for ya! LoL!

God Bless everyone out there today.

May you find your joy in the Lord today.

When you don't know what to say, pray!

Hello out there!

Over the past few weeks, I continue to understand  that sometimes words aren't sufficient enough 

 to express what's going on deep in our hearts. At times only an utterance or a silent cry to the Lord  

is all we can muster. 

We know that the Lord knows our heart, but of course people cannot see into our hearts.

This can be a problem when you want to speak, or have a conversation, but just don't have the will or the strength.

I have become closer to the Lord over the past few months,  It's made me realize just how far off I had

 drifted from Him. He has been there all along, but in these times of struggling and of pain,

I tend to seek His face more and lean on His strength to get me through the days when I just don't want to

go on. But He is faithful... and continues to give me strength.

To everyone out there in chronic pain or extreme pain,

keep going! Keep up the fight.

The Lord will see you through.



What a beautiful Spring day!

How in the world did march get here so quickly?

I can't believe it's already March.

It just doesn't seem possible.

I love the Spring. I love hearing the birds in the 

morning and watch the flowers as they begin to bloom.

I have a little squirrel house on our tree out back, and the squirrels 

go in and grab some nuts and rush back up the tree.

It's the cutest thing, especially when they bury them in the 

flower garden.

I am starting to put weight back on, thank the Lord.

I was having some problems with digestion and my bowels.

Of all the things to have trouble with at this point.

When it rains, it pours. (most of the time)

I'm trying to stay focused on having a positive attitude. 

I do have a praise to report.

I have seen a new gynecologist and she understands my pain.

I may be able to have surgery within the month-Lord willing.

I know that better days are ahead and I'm looking forward to them.

I pray all of you out there in cyberspace continue

to perserve. 

I know it's tough sometimes, believe me. 

But don't give up Hope. 

The Lord is our source of strength. 



Just becase I don't look sick.....

Hello Everyone!

I have had some pretty darn difficult days lately.
My IC has been flaring, out

of control, and I've been hurting.

All my life, God has blessed me with a high tolerance to pain.

Well, just because I can tolerate the pain, more than most, doesn't

mean I'm not still having to cope with it.

It just means I've learned my body, and have learned to breathe,

and work through the pain.

 I might not be screaming or crying out in pain, but this doesn't mean

 I'm "pain free."
Some days, I am crying out in pain, but those days are less often.
I am more of a silent sufferer.

All my life, people have said to me, if you were in pain... you would be more.....

No! I am in pain!  Please understand that each person handles pain

differently.

I may have days that are worse than others...on the days where my pain isn't

keeping me in the bed, I might feel like putting on make-up and looking decent.

This doesn't make me all of a sudden pain-free.

It means I am a strong women who chooses to smile through the pain,

and with the help of the Lord, take each day at a time.

Sometimes, people say to me, "You don't look sick," and I want

to say, does sick have a look?

Stop Judging the outside appearance of people.

This is my prayer.

I choose Joy.. Even in my Pain.

All of the people who live with chronic pelvic pain, or just chronic pain

can probably relate to this more than the average Joe.

Thank You Lord for your promises. We know that you understand us all

and I am thankful for that.

Help me today to show more compassion to others,

even if I don't think they look sick.

Texas Tornado has become a quite storm

Hello Everyone!

I have been sick lately, and haven't had the energy to blog.

I am having to accept my physical limitations.

This continues to be the challenge of my life.

Realizing that God has a plan for me no matter what my situation

may be, is empowering me with the strength to press on.

Sometimes, I look around and get discouraged at my circumstances.

Instead of focusing on things I can no longer control,

I am choosing(one step at a time) to focus on what I can control.

My attitude about my situation is the biggest thing I can

control immediately.

The Lord is always there to lift me up. He reminds me constantly

that He is constant. His attitude never changes. It is always the same.

 I can put my energy into Him, and He will help

my plans to succeed...no matter what.

His timing is not the same as our timing. I have learned

that I may have to wait, and my answer might be different than His,

but He is ALWAYS there for me to lean on, and to see me through

even the very toughest trials.

This week has been a rough one.

Thank God tomorrow is Friday!

We praise you Lord! And we thank you for allowing our trials

to strengthen us.



Everyone has a valentine today!!

Happy Valentines Day!

What, is she talking about?? Even if you don't have someone special

on this earth yet, Our heavenly Father is a friend that LOVES you more than

you can comprehend. HIS arms are always wide open for you!

He comes to rescue us, to comfort us, to LOVE Us!

That is TRUE love.

Sometimes, I wonder how a perfect and blameless heavenly Father would

want to have anything to do with me; a filthy sinner.

That's the incredible part about it all.

He Loves us in spite of our sins.

When we ask him to forgive our sins, he does. BOOM!

It's done. Wow! That's it? Yep!

That's it. If you accept it, it is yours free.....FOREVER!

I love you Lord.

Thank you for loving us all in our worst, best, etc.

You are worthy of all our affection.

This is a very beautiful day.

I woke up early feeling so much better than I have lately.

I was ready to shed the crud!

I had it worse than all of us. Well, somehow, my husband escaped getting fever,chills, and all that yuck that goes along with a cold.

I'm thankful for that.

The kids are back to normal. Poor Mom was the one who suffered the worst.

Oh well, I will take it on for them.

They are most definitely worth it!

I can't believe how big they are! What happened?

Stop growing!!

Julia wants to be a nurse someday, and possibly model some too!

Brett would like to be a video game designer.

I have wonderful kids. Sometimes, I want to wring there necks,

(just kiddin')

but they are still great!

Feeling sick, blue and need to be rescued!

Hello everyone.

Wednesday, I was doubled over in pain.

It was a horrible day. One I will never forget.

I have female issues in addition to having I.C.

Sometimes, It's tough to understand why I am suffering so much, without relief.

But, then I think of all the people out there in the world who are suffering; some worse than me.

This is my inspiration to keep going.

It lifts me up to read and listen to others who have chronic pain, or have something else very debilitating.

Today, my pain has lessened since then, and I'm able to cope with it better.

My physical therapist would like to continue to see me and work with my

bladder.

She feels that she will be able to help me improve my symptoms

considerably before a surgery is performed.

She is very informative about I.C. and chronic pelvic pain.

So, needless to say, surgery will be postponed until further notice.

Please continue to pray for me as I'm continually searching for answers.

I will pray for all of you who have I.C. as well.

The Good Lord knows who all of you are.